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All in a Night

November 29, 2008
It's been over two weeks since we were introduced to Lucy's new feeding system , I thought I would give an update on how things are going. The calculations for figuring out how much to put in the IV bag are getting easier now that we have learned what the best rate is for Lucy to receive her feeds. We have learned that the "Joey"pump has a 10% error in its run time, that explains her discomfort and vomiting last week when we were ramping up to the maximum rate. It's never good when you go to pick your baby up and she looks as though she is going to throw up all over you. So sorry Lucy that it took Mommy and Daddy a few days to figure out the system, we now know that anything above 45ml/hr is too much for her! As long as I am on the subject of bodily fluids, we are dealing with the exact opposite issue Lucy had before, diarrhea. For a baby who only went two to three times a month to now three to four times a day it has been a shock, not only to her but to us as well. Lucy is waking in the night with blow out diapers, the kind where you need to wash the baby, all her clothes, and the bedding not just once a night but several times in the night! Oh, I miss sleeping! When I spoke with the nutritionist and her metabolic doctor about this they were hesitant to switch Lucy's formula because they really like to give it several weeks to see if things don't improve. As her parents, we feel that this is related to her formula, as she is having these diapers only when the tube is running and not during the day when she is just nursing. Our pediatrician feels as though Lucy may be having malabsorption issues, perhaps it's the rate at which the food is going into her. What ever the issue, I know that she does better with just breast milk, so I am trying my best to build up my supply so that I can put more in her tube at night. This issue has created quite a backup in our laundry room! I would just like to say how thankful I am for Oxi Clean, that stuff works wonders! We have tried bigger diapers but they only make it worse as she has the skinniest legs and they just leave a gap for more fluids to escape. I have joked with Drew saying that I think we should wrap Lucy in plastic wrap after we diaper her, maybe it would contain the mess. For those of you who are new to my sense of humor, we would never really try this; but think it, I can't help it. As for our night time routine, we are getting better. We have a system down now that appears to be working, although it is constantly up for evaluation. Lucy is still waking in the night out of habit or because of a dirty diaper. I am waking every three to four hours to pump so that I can keep up my milk supply for her feedings. She seems to know when I am doing this because she is waking around the same time. I will nurse her back to sleep or change her if need be, then I go back to sleep for a few hours. We are setting the alarm clock for sometime in the middle of the night so that either Drew or I wake to add the formula to her bag when the breast milk runs out. We can not mix the two milks because breast milk can only stay at room temperature for four hours. Lucy's pump has an alarm bell that sounds when there is a problem with the feeds or the food runs out. The other night while setting the pump, I accidentally set it to go off after receiving so many mls of food. As a result the alarm kept going off every hour! We tried to fix the problem all night but with no success. We learned the next night while setting the pump what I had done wrong the night before. With that fixed, we thought that we would get a better night sleep the next night, wrong. For various reasons the tube kept clogging and the alarm kept sounding. On top of that Drew's pager for work kept going off due to low battery! Tonight we had to place another tube as Lucy pulled it out again. This is all in a night at our house!

Happy Thanksgiving

November 28, 2008
They're alnost all looking!

If only she could!


Happy Thanksgiving from our house to yours!
P.S. She pulled her tube just before dinner, we think she was making room for more.

Giving Thanks

November 26, 2008

We have so much to be thankful for! We just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has helped our family by praying, wishing us well, watching our children and loving them like your own, organizing a meal schedule, making us meals, calling to lend a helping hand and listening ear, lending me a shoulder to cry on, visiting us in the hospital, flying great distances so that you could be here for all of us, offering to run errands, attempting to make me laugh when I have felt more like crying, and offers of love and support at times when we have needed them the most! We are blessed in so many ways, the spirit of the season is so strong we are overwhelmed by it! We are extremely grateful for everything that has been done for our family!

It's Just Viral

November 25, 2008
I took Lucy in to see our pediatrician today because she has been running a fever for several days. Being the mother of four I do not panic when the kids get a fever, because kids do get fevers. But with Lucy I have had to adjust my thinking some. Believe it our not this is the first time that Lucy has been sick with a fever. She has a number of other medical issues but fevers are not one of them. In my mind, I was thinking that it was better to be safe than sorry. I didn't want to end up at DuPont this week because I overlooked something as simple as a fever, so I paid the co-pay to hear these words spoken to me by our pediatrician "it's just viral." That was the best thing she could have said to me today, not that I want my baby to be sick but that a virus is something that all kids get and will go away with time. It was a normal pediatricians appointment, you know the kind when you go in and feel like you just waisted her time and yours with something as simple as a virus. I was happy to have such a "normal" appointment today, not one where I left more worried than when I came. Of course we will continue to monitor her and hope that she recovers from this virus soon! I am also happy to report that Lucy is putting on some ounces! Drew has been plotting her growth much the same way he plots his data at work. He showed me her progress from the last few weeks, and she is definitely gaining, the scale is showing this as well! The ladies in our pediatrician's office noticed that Lucy's eyes were different, less sunken into her face. I noticed this several days after starting the tube feedings, but was happy to see that others can tell as well. It is encouraging to see her growing after all the effort and worry that has been given to her growth! Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers, they are making a difference!
Just thought I'd also update you all and let you know that Drew and I were able to catch a very cold breath of fresh air as we took in the peace and serenity of Longwood gardens. All of the Christmas lights were lit for the occasion. What a beautiful place for a party! We were able to get Lucy to sleep by 7:30 and we left the other kids to be put to bed by their grandparents. We received a call at 10:20 saying that Lucy was awake and crying. We got home by 10:45 and I was able to put her back to sleep with a little nursing and comfort. It was so nice to have those few hours! Hope we can do it again sometime soon.

Kids Say the Darnedest things

November 24, 2008

Megan said to me recently while looking directly into my eyes, "Mommy, you have maps in your eyes."
"Oh really," I said, "where are the maps going to?"
"Nowhere!"

I think I need a nap!

Guilt and Hope

November 23, 2008
I have said this statement a lot recently, "As a mother two feelings prevail, guilt and hope!" I know that all of my fellow mom friends can relate to what I just stated. Tonight Drew and I have the opportunity to go to a party at Longwood Gardens. We love Longwood Gardens and have always wanted to attended a party there. We are blessed with help this weekend. My in-laws came to visit the kids and us too. I know that for many of you, it makes you feel better when you can actually see Lucy and how remarkable she truly is. We know and understand that so well! It just so happens we need a babysitter tonight, what perfect timing! That being said, Lucy has a fever today. Isn't it always the case with kids, whenever you have something planned that is purely just for fun and something you have been looking forward to, they go and get sick on you. Of course in Lucy's situation, any illness could land us back in the hospital so we are very nervous to leave her tonight. I know that my in-laws could handle any situation; however, when your baby is sick she just wants you to be there to comfort her and so comes that feeling of guilt. Oh, I am hoping that she will fall asleep at 7:00PM and stay asleep until at least 10:00pm so that we can get out and enjoy the party for a few hours, oh I'd even take one hour! We just need a night out! So prevails those feelings of guilt and hope!

It's Not That Simple

November 20, 2008

Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers today! We wish that we could tell you that the metabolic doctors have found the reason for all of Lucy's issues, but unfortunately it is not that simple. Some of Lucy's labs are showing signs of a possible metabolic link, although they are hesitant to diagnose it as such. We have learned that whatever Lucy has it is NOT easy to diagnose, if it were we would have found it by now! So now what? Lucy had more lab work done today. As parents we are tormented by the fact that our little one has been poked and punctured so many times! Add to the torment is the knowledge that Lucy is a very difficult baby to draw blood from as well as get any urine samples. Because of her hospitalization last week, she had poor vein access today and it took their IV specialist four attempts before taking her blood from her scalp. They needed me to give them permission to make the fourth attempt today as they are only allowed to try three times before giving up. This decision was perhaps the most difficult for me to make thus far, as she was obviously in pain and we needed these labs today. It was very difficult to watch, comfort, and hold Lucy through this! Our hope in doing all of this is that we are able to find some answers to her medical mystery. It is getting increasingly difficult to say yes to more tests and procedures. We are Lucy's voice in all of this and we can hear her loud and clear, we just need to express her needs to everyone else involved in her care. We are blessed to have the support of so many friends, family, neighbors, our pediatrician, and people whom we don't even know but are praying for our little girl. With all of this support we will get through this, we have to!