Sunday, June 12, 2011

A day in my life…(Warning, this is not short!)

It’s 11:15 pm, I still have meds to give at midnight and I am waiting up for my husband who should land sometime around 1:00 am which means he should be home closer to 2:00 am, that is if his shuttle service picks him up on time. 

I am tired, there’s no denying it or hiding it…Megan often looks into my eyes and says, “Mommy, you have maps in your eyes.”.  Drew comments about how much I have to do in a day, telling me that I split seconds in an effort to squeeze it all in.  He called me tonight to tell me that his flight was delayed, and then proceeded to ask me what I did today.  I did not have the time or the energy to give him a recap of my day when he called and I felt bad about that,  but I still had to go to CVS to pick up a med for Lucy and then put the kids to bed.  This post is for you babe…

  • 5:29 am - I woke up one minute before my alarm, I hate alarm clocks but had to resort to using one while Drew was away.  Yes, hate is a strong word, but I mean it when I say it, I really do hate them.  In my opinion, it’ such an unpleasant way to wake up.  I am lucky that I am married to a man who knows this about me; therefore, he wakes me in the morning, ideally twenty minutes before I really need to wake up.  I need those twenty minutes to focus my eyes and mentally prepare for the day, but  if truth be told, Drew does wake me most mornings (if Lucy or the other kids haven’t already),  giving me only about twenty seconds before I need to start my day.  Most days we are already behind schedule even before we wake up. 
  • 5:45 am - I started infusing one of many of Lucy’s IV meds, and then quickly checked my e-mail while waiting for her first med to finish infusing.
  • 6:10 am – I began Lucy’s second med infusion, and went downstairs to talk to my mom before she left.
  • 6:15 am - Jack woke up early so that he could say good-bye to my mom who was leavening for the airport at around 6:30 am.
  • 6:20 am - My mom’s shuttle service came and picked her up for the airport, a little earlier than we thought so it was a quick good-bye.
  • 6:25 am – Jack had so much extra time this morning I let him buy the new Rick Riordan book on his Kindle that he has been waiting for. I knew that this would keep him occupied up until it was time for the bus come and take him to school at 7:55 am.  I also knew that our book worm would have a difficult time putting down his new book when it was time to go to school… I was right!
  • 6:30 am - I switched Lucy’s meds again, and then quickly jumped in the shower hoping that Luc would not hear the shower and wake-up.  I knew if I did not get in the shower then I would not have an opportunity later so I took the chance.
  • 6:45 am - I switched Lucy’s meds again in between getting dressed and blow drying my hair, which in hindsight was a total waste of time as it was hotter than h**l today!
  • 7:05 am - I woke Megan up for the day being very careful not to wake the sleeping dragon  Sophie in the bed next to her. 
  • 7:15 am – I finished infusing Lucy’s meds opting to omit her morphine dose to see how she does without it.   She is down to only .1ml for withdrawal symptoms, which she has shown little to none recently.
  • 7:20 am - I pressed Megan’s, Sophie’s, and my skirts as they looked like wrinkled up balls of paper.  Yes, Nancy, if you are reading this I press my kids clothes!
  • 7:25 am - Megan came to me asking if I could “just quickly” French braid her hair for school today because her class was preforming their show and she wanted her hair to be braided for the show.  As you well know but others reading this may not, Megan has enough hair for five people and we need to be downstairs by 7:30 am so that I can actually have time to make breakfast and have time for them to eat it!  Needless to say after several minutes of negotiating, Megan and I came to a compromise, I braided one small braid on the side of her head for her show.  Thank goodness she thought it looked good, you never know exactly how those last minute negotiations are going to turn out.
  • 7:35 am - I turned into a short order cook as I prepared the kids breakfast, eggs.  The kids choose to buy lunch today which made my morning just a tad bit easier, thanks kids!
  • 7:50 am - I threatened to take Jack’s Kindle from him if he didn’t brush his hair for the second time before going to school.  His hair was a mess in the back as he had been laying on the couch reading his book for the last hour and a half. 
  • 7:55 am -  A mad rush for the garage door occurred as the bus pulled up in front of our driveway, kisses were exchanged, a little licking of my finger to Jack’s hair was done, and off they went!
  • 7:56 am – A quick kitchen clean up before Lucy’s nurse arrived, because why, I don’t know it’s not like she hasn’t seen our house a mess.
  • 8:00 am – Lucy’s nurse arrived, I surveyed the mess that is our life  kitchen, and silently laughed at myself for thinking I could even tackle the mess in four minutes.
  • 8:05 am - Sophie woke for the day, obviously not really ready for the day. 
  • From the time Sophie woke up until 8:45 am I spent that time convincing Sophie to eat, get dressed, do her hair, put on her shoes… all in a speedy fashion so that she would not be late for water camp at her preschool that started at 8:30 am!
  • 8:50 am – I grabbed my keys and started walking out the door to take Sophie to school when I heard Lucy on the monitor…ugh. I swear that child has a sixth sense and knows whenever I am going to walk out the door.  I gave instructions to our nurse to fill the med boxes, and told her that if she wanted or if Lucy started screaming she could get Lucy up for the day.  Confession, I stated the last part of my orders with some hesitation.  I love getting Lucy from her bed in the morning, there is just something about seeing her in the morning that reminds me everyday is a good day.
  • 9:05 am - I dropped a reluctant Sophie off at preschool where the kids were already playing outside with all of the various water activities in the already 90 plus degree weather.  I kissed my girly several times and told her I would see her later in the day after she had lunch with her friend Alena, after she went to ballet and tap,  after she played at Josh’s house,  and after the kids came home from school, but before dinner. I drove away thinking that we are in need of a “day off”!
  • 9:30 am - I arrived back home to find Lucy still in her bed. Secretly, I was happy because, as I just confessed, I love to get Lucy from her crib in the morning, and also I was hungry and wanted to eat a quick bowl of cereal before she was up for the day.  Lucy’s nurse challenged talked me into at least sitting down for a few minutes to eat instead of my usual walk around the kitchen and pick up all the while taking bites of my breakfast routine.
  • 9:45 am - We went upstairs to wake Lucy for the day finding her and her bed covered in diarrhea.  Flagyl reeks havoc on our little one’s bowels, so much so that we sent her stool in for culture today.  We started Lucy back on Flagyl again even though we think at this point she is Flagyl resistant.  This is only because Dr. R is having trouble finding another interim antibiotic that does not require more than 2mls per dose that we can use for our girl to control her SBBO on the weeks we are not using the tobi and coli.  Lucy is unable to tolerate, really, any volume of meds in her GI tract, but we have to give her antibiotics via her J-tube to control the bacteria that is overtaking her GI system.  The meds have to come in contact with the bowel bacteria in order to kill it.
  • 10:00 am - Laundry, laundry, and more laundry…
  • 10:10 am – Continued with Lucy care… and infused more meds, in particular her Lasix which meant diapers, diapers, and more diapers. 
  • 10: 20 am – I attempted to cath Lucy as her bladder was full and she was straining to pee but couldn’t. 
  • 10:40 am - Our attempt was unsuccessful...ugh this is so HARD!
  • 10:45 am – Lucy’s speech therapist arrived.
  • 10:55  am - I realized that I needed to get a hold of Lucy’s nutritionist to get a copy of her labs from Monday. We are scheduled to see Dr. R in clinic at 1:00 pm and it is always helpful to have a copy of the most recent labs in hand when we go to see him. 
  • 11:00 am - I sat down to “play” with Lucy and her therapist, all the while fielding phone call after phone call.  One of which was Lucy’s nutritionist calling me to say that things are not looking good for Miss Lucy’s Liver and now kidneys.   The other calls were calls from the various people in our life that would be helping me out with our other three kiddos today.  It’s always good to double check that everyone is aware of the schedule for the day, that’s experience talking! 
  • 11:45 am - Therapy ended and so began that mad dash of getting Lucy’s TPN and fluid line changed out before we had to leave at 12:15 pm for DuPont.  Thank goodness for our new nurse who learns quickly, she had prepared all of the supplies while we were finishing up with therapy.  This made the task of changing Lucy’s TPN and fluid bag faster.  We did not do any med infusions as it was too early.  Instead, we packed her meds and syringe pump to do them later.
  • 12:15 pm - We packed up and headed out for DuPont.  Only problem, the garage door wouldn't close…ugh!
  • 12:54 pm – We pulled up to valet parking at DuPont with six minutes to spare!  
  • 1:03 pm - We arrived at clinic only three minutes late…hey, that’s pretty good considering the amount of time and effort it takes to get Lucy out of the van and into her wheelchair.
  • 1:10 pm - Dr. R arrived and we were called back with welcome arms for our appointment which lasted for almost an hour.  I felt like we discussed just about every organ system in Lucy’s body and what we are going to do, or rather not do about them.  Dr. R shared with me that Lucy’s TPN cholestasis is not improving and will most likely continue to get worse.  Her liver numbers were very off this week as well as her kidney numbers.  He talked to Lucy about how she needs to let mommy cath her, telling her that it will help her belly to feel better.  Lucy reluctantly agreed, then quickly disagreed..ugh!  He told me that we NEED to get going with this…double ugh!  We also discussed putting Lucy back on an antifungal as her mouth is now covered in yeast, as well as her bowels.   What we both agreed on was that her mood has most definitely improved.  Dr. R. not only gave his approval for us to go to Chicago next week , but asked me to share with him what we learn.   When finishing up he told Lucy to behave, to which she always replies “ok”, and said I’ll see you in a month…hopefully not sooner.
  • 2:05 pm – We walked down to the lab to drop off a '”specimen” and then headed over to IR for a scheduled dye study on her central line and a GJ tube replacement.  On Tuesday afternoon after a day of increased belly pain that was obviously more intense than her average belly pain, a series of e-mails were sent back and forth between Dr. R and I, in which a trip to DuPont was deemed necessary for some belly films to see what could be causing her increased pain. Lowe and behold her GJ tube was found to be out of position.   We have gone nearly ten weeks with the same GJ tube, this is a record for Lucy!  The reason we have been able to go so long with this tube is because ten weeks ago we stopped all efforts at enteral feeding.  We are only using her J for meds, very minimal amounts of meds at that as she can barely tolerate the 5 cc flush needed to push the less than 2 mls of meds given.  A dye study on her line was ordered because her line has been slow and reluctant to to draw blood when we are drawing labs.
  • 2:15 pm – Dye study complete, both lumens flowed freely with no clots or sheaths found.  What we did notice was that Lucy’ s line is very long inside her artery, when we pull back it sucks up against the artery wall.  The fix is to have Lucy lie down when drawing her labs so that the end of the catheter falls away from the artery wall!  I think we can manage this :).
  • 2:19 pm – Lucy’s GJ tube change began and went on for nearly an hour.   It was by far the most difficult tube change we have ever done!  Lucy was a trooper through the whole event…everyone commented on how amazing she was and is!  On several occasions Lucy vomited up bile as her belly was so full of it it made her nauseous.  At one point Lucy announced that, “my belly no hurt!”, hoping that by saying that we would stop what we were doing.  Immediately after announcing that her “belly no hurt”, she proceeded to vomit.  Dr. F had a very difficult time placing and keeping her new tubie in position, it took several attempts to do so.  He was unable to position the J as far as we do normally,  due to the fact that her bowels kept pushing the tube backwards.  We are all hoping that this new tube will stay in position, at least until we return home from Chicago.
  • 3:20 pm - Tube change complete, smelly stickers rewarded, high fives exchanged, and we were on our way downstairs to outpatient therapy for a  quick stop to schedule our appointment with wheelchair clinic sometime in early July.  Experience has taught me to schedule any appointments with outpatient therapy in person as they are notorious for not calling back in a timely manor.
  • 3:25 pm – I realized that in all of the events of the afternoon I forgot to infuse Lucy’s 1:30 pm meds, and so I began the marathon of med infusions on the way home.  This meant that I had to make several stops to change out meds on our drive home.
  • 3:30 pm- We loaded up and headed home, but not before stopping first at the hospital coffee shop for an overpriced under flavored wrap sandwich which was my lunch for the day.
  • 4:24 pm – We arrived at home, latter than usual due to all of the stops for med changes.   Helen was waiting for us, and our other three kiddos were at Beth’s house.  I arranged to meet them at Beth’s for pizza sometime after 5:30 pm, but before 6:10 pm as we had to leave at that time to be at Megan’s school by 6:15 pm.
  • 4:25 pm – I received a call from you saying that your received a text message from the airlines that your flight was going to delayed…ugh!
  • 4:30 pm – Helen and I began our attempt to cath Lucy...
  • 5:30 pm -  After many bribes, diaper changes, attempts at going on the little potty, and a diarrhea accident on the carpet later we were finally able to insert the catheter, but unable to get out any urine out as Lucy was umm… how should I  say this, uncooperative.
  • 5:45 pm – After cleaning up the mess on the carpet, which FYI did not come out entirely, I went over to Beth’s for a quick bite of pizza and to get the kids to take them to Megan’s show at school.
  • 6:10 pm -  We loaded up and headed home to quickly get Lucy and Helen to take them with us.  Thank goodness we only live a few minutes away from school.
  • 6:18 pm – We arrived at school, unloaded the troops, placed Lucy back in her wheelchair, and went in to see Megan’s show when I realized that I forgot to bring my camera and video camera…oh, how could I do this!
  • 6:30 – Showtime!  The kids in Megan’s class put on a talent show with some songs, poems, and pictures in between talent acts.  Megan chose, after much encouragement, to play one of her piano recital pieces, and let me just brag, “ she did great!”.
  • 7:30 pm – Shows over, we again loaded up all four kids, Lucy’s wheelchair, and our keyboard and stand, and headed home.  While pulling into the driveway I bribed utilized my expert parenting skills and told the kids that they could have an ice cream treat if they showered and got ready for bed in twenty minutes.  Guess what, Sophie was not in the mood for ice cream.
  • 7:35 pm – I unloaded the kids, the keyboard from the car, and brought in the flag and tiny umbrella,  as it looked like the skies were going to open up at any moment.  This is when you called to tell me that your flight was going to be delayed even longer, and then proceeded to ask me about my day!
  • 7:40 pm – I went upstairs to referee the showering situation, and to tell Sophie for the umpteenth time to get in the bathtub so that I can help her wash her hair.  Megan was crying at the top of the stairs because apparently Jack “kicked” her out of the shower before she had time to wash her hair and body.  I very sternly told Megan that the point of showering IS to get clean using soap, shampoo, and water and to get back in the shower,  which by the way Jack was not in yet.  I then turned around to tell Jack that he needed to wait for Megan to actually get clean before taking his turn, and to use soap and shampoo, too.
  • 7:45 pm – I helped Sophie to get clean and ready for bed, and it only took ten minutes!
  • 7:55 pm – I left the kids with Helen while I quickly ran to CVS to get Lucy’s antifungal that Dr. R called in for her earlier in the day.  When I picked up the med I noticed the script read, “give 4 mls by mouth four times daily”…really?, then gasped at the amount of medicine in the large plastic bottle, politely asking the pharmacist if in fact  these were the instructions given by Dr. R for Lucy.  His reply, “Yes, why?”
  • 8:04 pm – Three of the four kiddos were ready for bed.. not too bad, if I do say so myself!
  • 8:15 pm – I began an e-mail to Dr. R asking him to clarify what he “really” wants me to do with the med he prescribed Lucy.  At our earlier appointment we discussed swabbing Lucy’s mouth with some of it and also putting some down Lucy’s j-tube.
  • Around 8  pm – Helen started the next marathon of Lucy’s meds so that she could would be in bed sometime before you arrived home tonight.  For the record, Lucy had only slept five hours of the past 24…I feared she was beginning a no sleep pattern again!
  • 8:30 pm – Bedtime for 3/4’s of our kids!  
  • 8:41 pm – I actually sent Dr. R my e-mail I started earlier, hoping that he would read it tonight and respond back.
  • 8:51 pm – Dr. R responded back to my e-mail and clarified that he wants 2mls to go down her J-tube and swab her mouth with the remaining 2 mls.  Ok, much easier said than done!
  • Shortly after 9 pm – You called to tell me that you thought your flight was going to leave sometime after 10 pm.  I sighed, and you said, “ at least my flight isn’t cancelled, many of the flights leaving for the East coast are.”.
  • 9:30 pm – I contemplated attempting to cath Lucy again, but after gagging swabbing Lucy’s mouth with Nystatin I made an executive decision to skip it, plus I was too exhausted and so was Helen.
  • Helen left sometime between 9:30 and 10 pm
  • You called to tell me that your flight was leaving at 10:20 pm and told me not to wait up for you.
  • 10:00 pm -  I went upstairs to attempt to put Lucy to bed.  She went to bed crying and complaining that her “berry hurts”, too many meds down her J-tube.
  • 11:00 pm – After numerous backrubs, books, diaper changes, rearranging of blankets, babies, doggies, pillows… Lucy finally fell into a restless sleep.
  • In between my many attempts to put Lucy to sleep, I began the usual pick up from today and get ready for the next day routine.
  • 11:15 pm – I gave up on picking up and choose to write this insanely long blog post so that I could stay awake to see you when you came home tonight, or should I say this morning. 
  • 12:00 am – I administered Lucy’s midnight meds and then proceeded to put Lucy back to bed for what felt like the 100th time.
  • 1:45 am – You arrived home surprised to see me still awake, laughing when you saw what I was writing. 
  • 2:30 am – We were too tired to talk anymore and fell asleep passed out!
  • 3 comments:

    Groves said...

    When I saw this today, I thought of you:

    Patience, in the Greek, is Hupomeno:

    "To bear up under pressure."

    And that is certainly what you are doing. You are bearing up under pressure like nobody's business. Not like I have to tell you!

    My thoughts and prayers are with you throughout the day. We have long-term illness at our house, too, although the details are different. What a celebration we will all have in Heaven when the "Hupomeno" is over with...!

    Praying for and with you,

    Cathy in Missouri

    Clarissa said...

    prayers for your family!

    Jessica said...

    I know how tired you have to be after a week of days like that! All I can say is have you thought about leaving the catheter in Lucy? Maybe changing it once per day? That is what we eventually did for Eithene. One sterile catheter, inserted sterilely per day. Yes the infection threat is there, but it's there anyway if she retains urine constantly, and with the retaining there is likely to be more kidney damage. Just a thought. Hope your trip to Chicago is a great experience!